If you are going to try, go all the way.

Otherwise, don’t even start.

This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind.

It could mean not eating for three or four days.

It could mean freezing on a park bench.

It could mean jail.

It could mean derision.

It could mean mockery-isolation.

Isolation is the gift.

All others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it.

And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds.

And it will be better than anything else you can imagine.

If you’re going to try, go all the way.

There is no other feeling like that.

You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire.

You will ride life straight to perfect laughter.

It’s the only good fight there is.

I was lost in my thoughts thinking about what am I doing wrong. As I was wondering disheartened and disappointed in myself I bumped into Charles Bukowski and before I could say anything he said: “go all the way” after that I silently followed him until he said ‘it’s the only good fight there is’ then he disappeared in the fog leaving me with the answer I was looking for.

Well, I was not doing everything I should. I am still scared of mockery, worst odds, rejection and loss. Hence, I have to restart and do it all even if I had to isolate or starve because its worth it.

I am glad I bumped into Charles Bukowski.